FIGHT CLUB: YOU are the d*ck head that is d*cking YOU over!

I self sabotage. I F*CKING HATE THAT I DO IT. After years of it happening, now at least I Know when its happening. It is the most FRUSTRATING thing! Bc I am VERY GOOD AT IT.

It's one thing when someone else is messing your stuff up but when it's yourself..?!?!?

What the h-e-double hockey sticks?!?!

It's like in my favorite movie, Fight Club, where the character is literally f*cking himself over & he has no clue that he himself IS his nemesis.

So, I have to play mental chess with MYSELF. As soon as I see the self-sabotage behavior creeping up, I have to Cesar Millan it right away! Lol.

I'm serious! The same way Cesar Millan, the Dog Whisperer, teaches that to train a dog you must snip at her nose to discipline them; I have to do the same!

I have to be the Betsy Whisperer!

This job SUCKS.

No one else can do this job bc I am also a great manipulator and can lie to others (& myself) about the self-sabotaging behavior.

It's total BULLSH*T. I wish I could carve this self-sabotaging out of me with a dull spoon but...

This is one of my beautiful personality traits that I self awaringly need to exhaustingly watch out for.

After years of failing at things bc of the result of my successfully self-sabotaging myself, I devised a plan of ATTACK:

When I am about to d*ck myself over, I Acknowledge it! Write it out, have chats with myself, Be brutally honest! Say out loud: "Ooh! I see what you are doing! You are trying to self-sabotage. Well not on my clock sister! You deserve happiness and success. So CUT IT OUT! "
-You have to discipline yourself at the first sign of self-sabotage!

It's like at the end of Fight Club where he is fist fighting himself.

We have to take matters into our own hands bc we truly are the only ones that know the games we play!

Today, think of the games you play with yourself, any sabotaging going on? The good news is you can't blame anyone else but yourself! So it's up to you to adjust your behavior. The bad news is, you can't blame anyone else but yourself! So it's up to you to be honest with yourself and be disciplined enough to take the responsibility to adjust your behavior.

Now go & have a fist fight with yourself ;)

Xo