PUNK ROCK SELF-HELP

Rent Stabilized Me

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

I have had a NYC rent stabilized apartment now for 10 years. I am grateful for the time I have had it.

But...

Something happens after a while in Rent Stabilized buildings.

Stagnancy.

Immobility.

No GROWTH.

We buy into this idea that having a rent stabilized lease is like winning NYC Lotto!!!

At first, it is.

But...

Then as years pass & people move onward, outward, whilst we hold on with white knuckles to this false idea that THIS IS THE BEST DEAL EVER!

With thinking like that....

Growth STOPS.

Bc, if this is the best deal ever, then why ever leave?

Why ever try for more?

Why ever try to afford more?

Why would you ever leave...Eva?!?!

K...

This precise thinking is Exactly Why I Have to leave.

How sad that I am stuck in the thinking that the apartment I got in my 20's is the only, best, & last gift this city has for me?!

People who live in rent stabilized apartments for a long time are easy to pick out: There is the air of entitlement. The need for nothing to change in their neighborhood. Constant mention of their said rent stabilized apt!

Don't get me wrong:
I LOVE my rent stabilized apartment.

But...

It's either my apartment goes or I do.

I feel That strongly.

My sisters were honest with me last year & said that I am a hoarder. But not in the normal way. I wasn't hoarding things. I was hoarding my apartment.

It's true...

I can't articulate why.

It's a funny thing....

I just can't seem to let it go.

In that precise moment I realize then I HAVE to..:)

Surrender!

I am working towards doing probably one of the hardest things I had to do in the last 10 years.

I am plotting the surrender of my apartment.

Bc I need to surrender myself.

& I believe that once I let this safety net go...the Universe will provide.

Today, think back to your First apartment :))))) Don't you have such fond memories! Remember the strong feeling of Independence! Embrace that feeling. Quietly imagine your old self sitting on the bed & looking out Your window. How do you feel?!?! Now imagine this latest version of yourself sitting on the bed & looking out Your window. How do you feel?!?

It's time to Surrender & let go so the New can be WELCOMED :)))

Bc...
Once you have the Courage...
This city has even better gifts to give you!

But...

You gotta let go!

Xoxo

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