dANGER

My ANGER gets the best of me.

When I feel RAGE it fills up my little body.

Sometimes I get so Piss*d off that I feel like I could sob!

It affects my body. I feel like I have this ball of RAGE in my chest. It's in my body. It feels so overwhelming and like I can't control it.

SOOO...

Bc this doesn't happen often I am able to recognize the shifts in my physical body.

Lately, if I feel a lump in my throat, my heart racing and a ball of energy in my chest instead of making it "bad" and trying to Ignore it; I imagine this ball of Anger energy floating out of my chest to a point in front of me. Put it a lil below eye level.

Now, I am no longer disabled. I am no longer Holding this pain. This feeling of Anger that took over my body is no longer a part of me.

I am me.

The anger is it.

Visually separating the Anger from myself helps me realize that I am Not the Anger. Anger does not control me. Anger is an energy that is outside.

This is fantastic for problem solving!

Bc....

The Anger is a result of an issue at hand. If I am consumed with Anger my ability to resolve the issue lessens greatly. By floating the Anger outside of myself, I am able to see the Anger & then ask myself: What created this Anger? Why am I so upset? The Anger isn't the problem-so what created the Anger: What is the real problem?

Then I define the problem.

Once the problem is defined it is easy to come up with solutions!!!

When your body is in panic mode your ability to make a sound judgement is impaired! It is in your best interest to calm yourself down. Identify the problem. Then address it.

Here is an example:
I was so upset that someone was questioning my work ethics. I became flushed. My heart started racing. I felt like I was going to cry.

Then I went to the bathroom, in the privacy of my stall. I took deep breaths. I told myself: "This Anger isn't me." I used both hands & mimed pulling this Anger out of my chest. I placed it in a ball in front of me. I instantly felt relief. Bc I could "see" the Anger in front of me. Rather than being stuck in my body, feeling this helpless overwhelming rage, I took charge!

Once I had the ball of Anger floating. I asked it what happened? Why did it form? I did a play back of the events that happened before the Anger ball was formed.

I realized that I was too sensitive. That people are going to say things I don't agree with or like even. But, it's up to me to process them and not personalize it.

I felt grateful for my Anger ball for telling me the how, why, and what I should do next. I was able to look my Anger eye to eye and understand it rather than make it wrong.

I Thanked all of the people that played a part in my Anger ball. Put the Anger ball in both hands & blew it away. Release it back to where it started.

I was able to understand my Anger. I was able to see my fault. I was able to see what Piss*d me off so next time I can avoid it or them ;) & I was able to release it!

Success!

Today, try this. The next time you feel Anger don't make it wrong! Your body and feelings are communicating with you. Listen to what it is saying. No issue is too big or too small to let the Anger build up inside of you! Or worse yet, to linger. That's why we get sick or get dis-eases. Bc we are not at ease! A person that is harboring Anger in their body temple eventually will get sick. Pull that residual crap out of you! For now, as soon as you Feel Anger pull it out so it doesn't have time to settle in your body. Anger isn't wrong. But ignoring Anger or pretending like it isn't there or harnessing it to use for full Rage is not healthy!

The healthy response is to look at our feelings in a curious way. Detach yourself from being the creator of the feeling. And look at the result almost like a scientist prodding at a petri dish.

Xo