"Sell Out"

This is the first time this happened to me...

I'm kinda SHOCKED. 

I was told that I wasn't hired by a client Bc of my creative interests "on the side."

The client said they were "afraid" I wouldn't give their project the Full attention it needed. 

Now...

In my creative pursuits, I have heard this time and time again...

That I was a "Sell Out" for getting a day job. Bc I "Sold Out" on my dreams and only pursued them "part-time." 

I Never have considered myself a "Sell Out." 

I always considered myself Well Rounded :) 

I love business and enjoy the multitudes of responsibility my day job brings me! 

I get to use my skill set and brains in a different way then when I am performing. 

Besides...$alary allows me Not to Stress my art. 

I do art bc I LOVE it! 

If I make $ with it, Great! 

But, I do it no matter what! 

The exchange if currency doesn't validate whether or not I Am an artist. 

I create art. 

Therefore, by definition I am an artist. 

I guess I'm an anomaly: 

A happy artist with a day job! 

;) 

Now, I have worked with these clients since August. At no cost to them. In hopes, of eventually getting hired. I Never expected this to happen...

The way the couple told me the were choosing to move forward with another firm went like this: 

"Yeah, we think you are wonderful! You are fantastic at what you do! If it wasn't for you, we wouldn't have even considered taking this journey. We wanted to explore our options with 2 others as we told you we would. (I was never told this.) We met with one, really qualified contestant who is a musician that owns a recording studio. He too was really great at what he does! Then there was this other person who ONLY does this for a living. We felt like they would have more focus. I mean the musician really would rather be playing music then worrying about us. Betsy, don't you do something besides this?" 

I was ZINGED. 

Bc I NEVER tell people in my day job that I have other interests. But I became "friendly" with these clients AND they were in the arts! 

We spoke freely about our LOVE of theater. 

At the end, it cost me a job. 

While, hearing this response from these potential clients the first feeling I had was Anger. 

How dare anyone judge me for how I spend my free time?!?!?

If I were a knitter, would the same conclusions be made?!?

Bc I am in the performance arts that must mean that I am doing a job merely bc I can not get a job doing what I really want to do...

So sad. 

If that is the assumption. 

Bc...

I feel blessed and Balanced having BOTH the day job & the performance night life :) 

More sad...

I know I am better at my job then the person they chose. But bc they knew of my night time existence, I was thought of as UNPREDICTABLE. 

Today, When was the last time you Sold Out?!?!

Are you a Sell Out?!? Have you sold yourself out recently?!? Cut yourself short?! Compromised your dreams?!? 

When was the last time you were judged for what you do rather than your ability?!?

When was the last time you felt cheated?!

Misjudged?!

Under rated? 

Yet, you KNEW you could DO it! 

What stopped you?!?

If no one told you Today, You are perfect :) 

Xo