Over D'ng

4th of July was bitter sweet. I had a 5 day weekend. & traveled all over the NYC area for a STAY CATION!!! Which was uh-mazing! 

But...

My heart was heavy. 

You see...

My friend od'd on July 1st
and died. 

His wake was on July 3rd. 

The funeral home was packed with every walk of life! Varying ages, races, likes, etc. All filled with sadness bc we lost our friend. 

He was always smiling. 

Laughing. 

Goofy. 

He made a party wherever he was. 

He was one of my favorites :) 

We hung out non-stop the summer of 1992...

He would pull up in front of my house in his parent's white Ford Taurus. I remember getting into the passenger side, sliding over to kiss him hello and him playing a tape that he had made just for me! 

Every weekend he would drive us all somewhere to see a band :) 

We went to lollapalooza & NYC hard core shows all over the city. 

That summer I saw Rage Against the  Machine 3x's. 

We once stayed out all night and camped in the woods by his house. Bc we got back from a concert late and I forgot my keys. I had no where to stay so the only logical answer was for us to stay in the woods. He sneaked into his house to get us a blanket & sweatshirt. 

He was FUN. 

We were young. 

Now he is gone. 

Today, sometimes we lose a good one. A void is felt in the universe. 

He chose his life and...his death. 

We are left behind to mourn. But...maybe it's his life to take and our gift to have had him at all. 

When was the list time you watched someone over doing it?

When was the last time you over did it?

Over doing it ain't fun to do.

Or to watch.

Is it ever really worth it?

Dunno.

I guess it is our life to do as we will with it...

Hmm...

Are you over or under doing your life?

Xoxo