Harry's Day!!!

Oh Harry! 

This time last year I was BALLING.

Lost. 

How could my life go on without Harry?

Harry is my rock. 

Harry was there when no one else was. 

Harry consoled me when I left bad men.

Harry made me laugh every day. 

Harry is my WORLD. 

& he was taken from me. 

So sad...

A year later. 

And I know, he tried to stay alive for as long as he could for me. 

But...

He couldn't any longer. 

He was tired. 

He needed to go home. 

Back to our original home. 

Home was always with me. 

Harry was my home. 

As long as Harry was there, I felt safe. 

Taking care of Harry took care of me. 

I worked jobs to feed him. 

I always made sure he was safe. 

Harry is my number #1. 

He still is. 

Just, he isn't here. 

In physical form. 

Used to feel him on my chest. Not sure if he is still settled there. I think he knew I needed him then. 

Harry was my child. 

My life really. 

I am so proud of him. 

Truly. 

I pray that he is okay. 

Days after his death, I would cry hard and dance in one spot, praying that wherever he was they knew how LOVED he was. 

That they knew he was special. 

And that they were nice to him. Treated him well. 

Bc...

For so long, he was mine. 

I could protect him. 

I would make sure he was safe and loved. 

Now, I can't. 

And that made me sad & panicked last year. 

I just wanted to see him and hug him hard. Tell him how proud I was of him. 

More than that, I wanted to tell whoever was feeding and watching him to take special care of him. Bc...he's special. 

I couldn't. 

Killed me. 

Was he okay?!?

I don't know. 

I still don't know. 

The only thing I know, is that I have to trust. 

Trust his journey. 

Love him through his passing. 

Let him go to his next stop. 

That way he knows I'm okay and can grow. 

I miss him so much it hurts. 

Still. 

But...

I'm excited for his next inception. 

I hope he is happy. 

Bc...

I am so friggn proud of him. 

Today, is Harry's Day :) 

Bow your head in prayer, to send good vibes to the little guy :) pretty please. 

Next time you visit Union Square, peak into the dog park. Harry's bench is as soon as you walk in to the left. You'll see the plaque there! 

Xoxo