Are you there God, it's me Betsy?

I have been reading this BIG book and it keeps using the term "higher power"*...

I believe in God. 

Goddess. 

Jesus is my homeboy, fo sho! 

But...

This whole a power higher than myself thinga ma jingy I just can't get on board with. 

Odd.

It's really stirring stuff up for me. Confused really. 

Like, why is it so hard for me to believe there IS a power higher than myself? 

Got me thinkn...

I have had to take care of myself for so freakn long. 

It is difficult for me to arrive at the idea that there is something higher than me. 

I have had to to be my own higher power for so freakn long I simply don't believe there COULD be a power higher than myself. 

Today, Do you believe there is a power higher than yourself? Is there a God?!? What do you call em?!?

Noodle it! 

So...

*I was reading the book on the F train. It's become my travel companion. I was in the depths of reading and rereading the higher power stuff. And in my head thinking I don't know if I believe in this jargon...

This wacky little old guy gets on the train and is shuffling around his bags, going through his stuff, and muffling words under his breathe. 

Till I hear this...

"That book saved my life."

I turned and said how did you see the title?!? He said he knows the book by heart! 

I moved in closer and we chatted from Brooklyn to NYC. 

He made me cry. It was so beautiful. I told him I don't get the whole higher power stuff. And he said, "Sweetheart, you can't expect this white light moment. It's as simple as a shift of personality." He told me the page and to read it. I did. What he said next is magic...

"Do you want to change?" 

I said yes.

He asked, "If I wanted to change before I started this journey?"

I said no. 

He said, "Well, then that's a shift of personality."

Period. 

...

HELL YEAH!!!!

I told him, "I was looking for God and I found him in you. You are my Angel." 

2 Strangers had a Spiritual Encounter on the F train. 

God exists. 

In people. 

In the world. 

In us.

Gotta figure out what to call her ;)

Xoxo

Ps: photo is of one of my fav childhood books, "Are you there God it's me Margaret?" Written by Judy Blume.