Baby making years

As a woman, we have a limited amount of time to get pregnant. 

It just is. 

It sucks. 

I have had my head in the sand about it. 

But...

This is real talk time. 

I went to a Dr. to freeze my eggs bc my wasband cheated, broke up with me, demanded a Divorce, and just all out became a stranger. 

I'm sitting ALONE in the conference room across from the Dr. talking about my hormones. 

I almost fainted. 

From the stress. 

She was confirming all of the pricing packages and my options. Until...

She pulls out my file. 

Turns out...

Bc...

I have a .93% of AMH I will not be able to get the package.

My hormones are too low, blah blah, BS, yadda yadda. Buzz sound. I can't hear. 

Dream dread. 

Me dead.

Floor.

Heart. 

Crushed. 

But...

Does he even care that I can't have a baby? 

That I began dating him at 34. And he dumped me at 39. 

Those 6 years. 

Prime baby making years. 

That he wasted of mine. 

I will never get them back. 

I will never get my ability to birth a baby back. 

Does he even understand? 

Will he ever accept responsibility for his actions? 

He robbed me of a lifelong experience that I will NEVER get back. 

& He doesn't even care.

Today, ...!

I am speechless. 

Barren.

Baroness. 

Xo

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