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Baby making years

Friday, November 18, 2016

As a woman, we have a limited amount of time to get pregnant. 


It just is. 


It sucks. 


I have had my head in the sand about it. 


But...


This is real talk time. 


I went to a Dr. to freeze my eggs bc my wasband cheated, broke up with me, demanded a Divorce, and just all out became a stranger. 


I'm sitting ALONE in the conference room across from the Dr. talking about my hormones. 


I almost fainted. 


From the stress. 


She was confirming all of the pricing packages and my options. Until...


She pulls out my file. 


Turns out...

Bc...


I have a .93% of AMH I will not be able to get the package.


My hormones are too low, blah blah, BS, yadda yadda. Buzz sound. I can't hear. 


Dream dread. 


Me dead.

Floor.

Heart. 

Crushed. 


But...

Does he even care that I can't have a baby? 

That I began dating him at 34. And he dumped me at 39. 


Those 6 years. 

Prime baby making years. 

That he wasted of mine. 

I will never get them back. 


I will never get my ability to birth a baby back. 


Does he even understand? 

Will he ever accept responsibility for his actions? 


He robbed me of a lifelong experience that I will NEVER get back. 


& He doesn't even care.


Today, ...!


I am speechless. 

Barren.

Baroness. 


Xo


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