As a woman, we have a limited amount of time to get pregnant.
It just is.
It sucks.
I have had my head in the sand about it.
But...
This is real talk time.
I went to a Dr. to freeze my eggs bc my wasband cheated, broke up with me, demanded a Divorce, and just all out became a stranger.
I'm sitting ALONE in the conference room across from the Dr. talking about my hormones.
I almost fainted.
From the stress.
She was confirming all of the pricing packages and my options. Until...
She pulls out my file.
Turns out...
Bc...
I have a .93% of AMH I will not be able to get the package.
My hormones are too low, blah blah, BS, yadda yadda. Buzz sound. I can't hear.
Dream dread.
Me dead.
Floor.
Heart.
Crushed.
But...
Does he even care that I can't have a baby?
That I began dating him at 34. And he dumped me at 39.
Those 6 years.
Prime baby making years.
That he wasted of mine.
I will never get them back.
I will never get my ability to birth a baby back.
Does he even understand?
Will he ever accept responsibility for his actions?
He robbed me of a lifelong experience that I will NEVER get back.
& He doesn't even care.
Today, ...!
I am speechless.
Barren.
Baroness.
Xo
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