Super duper sad.
It's a complex sadness.
Ya see...
The younger version of me would be a perfect fit for somen I'm pursuing.
She was grounded in NYC. She was innocent sheltered and complacent. Simpler version of myself I guess.
& I have grown and evolved into a more developed being. I no longer can relate or am relatable to the same energy I was when I was younger.
Trying to accept this.
Trying to not be sad by this.
Loss.
Bc...
I truly like that I am more evolved. It's exciting!!! Never a dull moment. I am constantly shifting and growing. And LEARNING my a** off!!!
If I remained the same girl I was, I would not know what I know now.
It costs something to advance.
And it costs certain connections.
But...
I can't stay put.
I never could.
Even when I was that girl, I wanted to keep expanding for more. Onward and upward.
I think I'll never be done.
I'll always want to be evolving!
But...
I'm sad.
I feel rejected.
Maybe, it's time I start doing the rejection rather than being so open to lesser.
Today, Do you miss an older version of you? Funny, Bc it's really a younger version of you. But, it's older to you. So...
Is there an older you that you miss?
What is it about that you that you liked most?
Write it out!
Is there a way to incorporate those traits into the now you?
Get what I'm saying...
For instance, old me from 15years ago was naive.
There really is nothing I think I can't figure out on my own now. So I can't fake naivety. But, I can embrace wonder and curiosity more on a daily basis. Which will help conjure similar vibes.
Now it's your turn!
Xoxo
Ps: this is a picture I ripped out of a catalog years ago. She looked like me at the time. We both had the same color brown hair. Before, I started dying my hair dark. Like my soul. Lol jk.
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