I’m in Love

There. I. Said. It. 

Yikes! 

It’s like I am afraid an anvil is going to fall out of the sky and onto my head as soon as I utter happy words. 

Aye ya yay!!!

Crazy pants!!! Bc...Ya’ll know where I came from and the deep sadness in my heart I endured for years. Worked my ass off to get to the place where I am able to love someone only because I first loved myself. 

Interesting process. All of the fairy tales and stories are based on finding a missing piece. Truly thought that and came from that place when looking, searching, desperately seeking...love. 

Only after saying “F*ck IT!” Did IT happen. 

I took this picture days before I met my love. I was sitting in my car, in New York City, Crying. I texted it to my friends to be like, “Hey, how are you ladies?!? Oh I’m fine, just sitting alone crying in my parked car.”

I had zero clue what to DO. All I did, was did. Therefore, I was DONE. 

Done with the chasing, games, drama. I gave up on dating that rainy night. 

Today, Have you given up yet?!?! 

“Give up to give in to win!!!”

Corny ass cheer. But... 

I gave up, on the pursuit and needy behavior. Gave in, to whatever was about to come. I literally was like f*ck  it I’m gonna just say yes to it all. 

I won. 

I am in love. And it feels amazing. I am very grateful and very blessed. To be loved by a good man. 

There I said it. 

Insert Anvil. 

Dead. 

Xo 

Ps: hilarious that my picture is so sad and the title is so happy. Shocker...I am dark. Even when shining in a light.