I am terrified of getting married again. It was such a shitty experience.
GD.
It’s like, I made it out of a burning building why the F would I want to RUN back inside?!?
Dude.
I am so in love with my man.
He is THE ONE. For me :)!
But...
I find myself terrified.
Terrified that he will walk down the aisle and then change.
Change his mind. Change his wants. Leave. Just ducking* bolt. To bolt and leave. Become someone else.
That was my first experience.
He just left.
Left me closing out our life together.
With good reason, I do not want that to happen to me, Dottie, our life again.
In my experience, when a man says yes to marriage, he then can choose to not be married 2 years later, and leave.
Sadly.
I know, my man is not that man.
In my heart, I feel safe and loved.
All he wants is to get married to me. It is the most beautiful thing I have ever felt. Makes my heart soar!!!
Then...
I shut down.
Bc...
Now, he wants me.
But...
Will he want me in 2 years?!?
Today, Does your past hurts dictate your future?
Take that one in...
Does
Your
Past
Hurts
Dictate
Your
Future
?
Hmm...
Only if we LET it. Right?!?
Aye ya yay. Seems this one is bigger than me. Doing my best to LET it goooo.
Xo
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