I strangle myself with anxiety and fear. I block my own throat air way when I get scared. Hold my breathe. And restrict the air from coming in freely.
Realized how bad this can be this past weekend.
I am strangling myself.
?!?!
For the past few years, I’ve been doing throat chakra meditations and wearing blue crystals to help open my throat. I know this is a hurdle of mine.
But...
I realized I am killing myself slowly.
Bc...
I am terrified of living.
The throat chakra is about self expression. Feeling and being heard. Believing that I have something worthy to say and will be heard.
But...
That isn’t my truth.
I haven’t been heard. At times.
I have ignored myself. At times.
So...
No shocker that I am a self-choker.
Today, Do you speak your truth? Truly. Say what you really feel. Let yourself speak your truth?
I don’t.
I lie.
To myself and others. All to keep the peace. I say to myself it doesn’t matter and it’s not worth saying truths bc it’s only harmful.
And so...
I choke.
Well, no more choking.
Actively, working on speaking the truth. My truth. Which doesn’t mean it is THE TRUTH. But...
It’s a start.
Also, going to start repeating this mantra:
“It’s safe to open my throat. It’s safe to say my truth. My throat is open. I allow air to flow freely. Inside my throat and outside.”
Amen.
Xo
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