Betsy in a BUBBLE

(my girls!)

I woke up today so depressed. Lots changing in my life, all good but still feeling inner resistance & sadness :( I'm in a bubble! A depression bubble of "Oh WOE is me"...

Wah! Betsy has to get all of her stuff in one place! Wah! Betsy has BIG plans to make! Wah! Betsy's life didn't go the way she thought it would! 

I'm in a big fat whiny self pity BUBBLE.  No one can get to me bc I deserve this & I should feel my feelings...right? Wrong!

Betsy needs to STOP being a Titty Baby! 

SOOO

As my recovering alcoholic boyfriend who I am scheduled to marry (I hate the word fiancé: reminds me of au pair or chauffeur-sounds too much like hired help & is too stuffy a title for this goof ball!) anyhoo as my lover likes to say "poor Betsy...has she written her gratitude list today? Bc all I'm hearing is what Betsy does Not have! But I think Betsy has a lot, don't you?"

& I always say NO. Bc frigg him for being right ;) 

SOOO

Here I am. In my bubble. I am sad. I am allowed to be sad. But it kinda stinks bc everyone else is going out to play & I can't bc I'm the girl in the bubble :(

SOOO

 Maybe I Could try and write my gratitude list:

I am grateful for the moon bc it always smiles back at me at night :)

I am grateful for the sun bc it warms me up down to my spirit :)

I am grateful for my Jade tree bc it grows in the most interesting unpredictable ways! 

I am grateful for my Robots!!! Bc they bring me such JOY to make & then they smile back at me everyday :)

I am grateful for my new BIG bed bc it's soo darn comfy! & I don't get squished at night anymore by the Ogres in my bed ;) 

I'm grateful for my stereo bc it allows me to dance silly around my apartment & covers the parts when i sing poorly :)

I am grateful for my wardrobe bc it helps me express myself through fashion :) 

I am grateful for my comic books bc they inspire me to imagine other worlds I have yet to visit! 

I am grateful for my ability to cook bc it allows me to nurture my body while being creative which nurtures my spirit. 

I am grateful for my goals bc they keep me on track & remind me of why I am working so hard. 

I am grateful I am an improviser bc I see the world as a magical place where anything is possible & I can invent a world that didn't exist moments earlier :) 

I am grateful for my Buddha statue bc he peacefully sits on my windowsill guarding all that enters my home from the outside world. 

I am grateful for my girls! They are my favorite artwork that speaks to me & remind me I'm cool :) 

I am grateful for my doggie, Harry :) bc he is everything that is good in this world. Harry has been my constant through all of my many past lives & for that I am eternally grateful. 

I am grateful for you guys here at God Save This Queen!!! Bc YIKES Without you reading this I would be talking to myself! & I'm already creepily talking in 3rd person! Betsy needs to stop doing that. Yes, Betsy does! Okay Betsy we talked about this!...K stopping ;)

Keep your Gratitude list going...lover, family, friends! I find it easier to start with inanimate objects bc they don't talk back. Lol ;) 

Hmm...I feel better :)

I BURSTED my Bubble by writing my Gratitude list!

Now it's your turn!!! 

Betsy is no longer the girl in a Bubble :) 

Betsy, we talked about this...Fine, no more 3rd person! 

Now go write that list!!!  

Xoxo