PEDESTALS

I imagine myself like a comic book character plowing through marble. Dust, pebbles, pieces of marble spray in every direction!

KA-POW!

Almost like the HULK.

I am pissed.
I am disappointed.
I am present.
I am awake.

I see things as they are.
Not how I wish them to be.

I see things as they are.
Not how others wish me to see them.

I see things as they are.
Not wish....

In the past, I wanted people, places, things, art, to be BIGGER than me. GREATER than me. MORE than me.

I needed them to be BIGGER, GREATER, MORE than me.

Bc...

It was easier.

Just simpler.

When others become the go-to's then we stop having to make decisions.

We stop having to show up.

Life is so much simpler!

Or...

Is it?

If we put everyone else on PEDESTALS & make everyone else GREATER than us.

We STOP GROWING.
We get ATROPHY.
We GIVE THE F*CK UP.

You know when you do it.
You know when you did it.
You know when you are about to do it.

I placed everyone above me.
I made them smarter, funnier, more responsible, more talented, more deserving, more, more, more...

Till finally...

I am teeny tiny.

Just little.

Itty bitty.

Not able to make a decision without jumping up to ask someone on a podium.

Depending upon what they said to do, how to feel, how to react...Was what I did!

I was surrounded by a protection of PEDESTALS.

Oddly, I felt more ALONE.

Surrendering all of my power to others. Placing PEDESTALS around me with people on stakes created a division between me and those I idolized.

It wasn't their fault. I was left a mess. Bc it was never anyone's responsibility to make the decisions of MY life.

But...

I sub-contracted it out!

Which left me feeling empty.

Bc the decisions I should be making for myself I was letting the PEDESTALS make.

AND

PEDESTALS were "BETTER" than me.

Or so I thought and therefore created.
Result:
I never felt like enough.
Which left me feeling empty.

AND

I built this world built on stilts while I remained teeny. I felt like a toddler jumping up to get a glass on the middle of the table.

Which made me feel empty.

Today, think honestly about the PEDESTALS you have created in your life. What is Untouchable??? Who is Untouchable? What have you put up on a pedestal? Have you made it greater than yourself? Is this healthy? Do you feel full or empty in regards to this pedestal?
What is on your PEDESTALS?!?

Try this exercise:
think about this "thing."
May it be person, place, thing:
Close your eyes.
Where is it? Do you imagine it above you? Below you? Or eye to eye?

Now...
Open your eyes.

In life, it is our goal to see everything eye to eye!
Nothing is greater than you.
Nothing is less than you.
Nothing is nothing.
See everything as across from you.
Equally!

Close your eyes again.

Move ANYTHING that is Not eye to eye TO the eye to eye position.

Be relentless. Be relentless doing this!
As often as you need to!!!

Do not let yourself create PEDESTALS for others or Yourself!!!

Xo