June 17, 1995

I was writing the date earlier & I thought hmm... Why is this date so familiar? June 17th...Is it someones birthday? A Wicca holiday? Then I remembered...

That it's June 18th ;) 

And...

18 years ago on June 17th, 1995 was when I first started dating my first real real serious boyfriend. 

If I think back to...who I was when we started dating. 

Then how I grew the 5 years we were together. 

Until, we finally broke up. 

& how scared I was to be without him. I was terrified of not being able to afford things on my own, or to conquer the world. 

Now, I find myself in the same predicament but oddly on the other side. 

I am scared of settling down. 

Over the past 13 years I have been able to fend for myself and create this life for myself where I am NEVER afraid of being alone. 

It's time...

To settle in to settling in. 

:)))

I am EXCITED!!!

But NERRRRRRVOUS as heck!

Being a kid of divorce & seeing so many unhappy marriages unfold around me...

As well as my own failed long term almost married relationships...

May make a gal a lil reluctant to take the dive into the deep end of the wedding pool?!

Maybe...

Or maybe I'm just a big kid ;) 

Whatever the reason, I am ready. 

& it feels damn GOOD! 

& scary!

& neRRRRRve racking?!?

Ahhhh! 

Yay! 

Today, where were you 18 years ago, Today?!? How have you grown? Shifted? Changed? Is it for the better? Are there aspects of yourself that you liked better back then? Are there parts of you that you are glad you shed & left in the past?!

Time flies but sometimes change & progress takes much longer. 

Settle in to where you are and let us give thanks for where we all once were! 

Xoxo