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Sitting Shiva 5/15

Monday, May 15, 2017


Decided to get rid of all of my mirrors. 


I LOVE mirrors. 


A) I'm from Staten Island.

B) They make small spaces look bigger.

C) See A.


So...


I asked the Moving Co how much it would be to move all my mirrors. And they said $65 each. 


Now...


My mirrors are worth $65 each to ship. For many reasons. Mostly, see the list above. 


Yet, somen stopped me. Something said don't do it. 


The day of the move I kept looking at em thinking, "What am I gonna do with you guys?!?" 


They are heavy baroque mirrors. Bu-roke the bank when I bought them. ;)))


So...


What was my hesitation?!?!


Finally, it came to me. 


None of these mirrors are coming with me! They aren't meant to take the journey to my next spot. The person I saw in those mirrors no longer exists. I will buy new mirrors to reflect the #newme. 


Reminded me of a GSTQ post from September or October where I said that I just started looking in the mirror again after the upheaval of the summer. It was too painful to see my own reflection of raw utter sadness that I stopped looking in mirrors. Last summer, I lost 15lbs. I was gutted with betrayal and a disgust for humanity. Not sure I even wanted to live.


These mirrors of that persons reflection can't come with me. 


That person has died. 


In the ashes. 

"Gurl...I'm ashy!"


Bc...

This Phoenix is rising & she needs new mirrors to reflect her blinding light in :)))


Today, Do you like what you see in the mirror?!?


Really. 

Do you? 


Be curious to ask yourself the next time you have a glance. 


If you could what would you change? Adjust? Love? 


What do you see in your reflection that isn't physical? Are you happy? Sad? Feeln sexy?!?


Mostly, mirrors hold energy. 

I can sense it. 

Most times you can see the splintered reflections. 


Smart decision to leave all that stored sad left energy behind. 


Leaves way for #newme looking back in the mirror :)))


And...


See A) above. 

I now have a legitimate reason to go buy more mirrors. 

Yay! 


Xoxo




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