Flat Left 5/14

I sat in my empty sad a** apartment, sad. 

The walls were broken.

My marriage is broken. 

My husband had left 10 months ago. I have been left behind. To pick up the pieces. 

Keep our old life afloat. Emotionally, financially, and physically. I lived in the "set" of our marriage for 10 long months waiting for my lead actor to come home. He never did. My ex husband is long gone. He left. 

I am left. 

Behind. 

Left. 

Over. 

Like, leftovers in the back of a fridge decaying. 

Time to throw that sh*t out!!!

Today, when was last time you were Flat Left?!? 

I remember being 10yrs old and 

desperately saying to my friend "Um...but you Flat Left ME!!!"

That is such a distinct visceral feeling of being abandoned and left behind for someone to go somewhere else to have fun without you. 

Flat Left is precisely how I felt for the past 10 months. 

Sleeping in this empty stupid apartment sobbing non-stop for an entire night reiterated my feelings of L-E-F-T. 

Now...

It's time to do R-I-G-H-T. 

And leave. 

Xoxo

Ps: listened to this song non-stop 

https://youtu.be/RBumgq5yVrA