I sat in my empty sad a** apartment, sad.
The walls were broken.
My marriage is broken.
My husband had left 10 months ago. I have been left behind. To pick up the pieces.
Keep our old life afloat. Emotionally, financially, and physically. I lived in the "set" of our marriage for 10 long months waiting for my lead actor to come home. He never did. My ex husband is long gone. He left.
I am left.
Behind.
Left.
Over.
Like, leftovers in the back of a fridge decaying.
Time to throw that sh*t out!!!
Today, when was last time you were Flat Left?!?
I remember being 10yrs old and
desperately saying to my friend "Um...but you Flat Left ME!!!"
That is such a distinct visceral feeling of being abandoned and left behind for someone to go somewhere else to have fun without you.
Flat Left is precisely how I felt for the past 10 months.
Sleeping in this empty stupid apartment sobbing non-stop for an entire night reiterated my feelings of L-E-F-T.
Now...
It's time to do R-I-G-H-T.
And leave.
Xoxo
Ps: listened to this song non-stop
https://youtu.be/RBumgq5yVrA
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