Gladiator

The arena analogy in the last GSTQ post reminded me of author Brene Brown’s quote that she doesn’t take any feedback from anyone who isn’t in the “Arena.”

If you aren’t in the Arena and putting yourself out there, you don’t get a say in her world. 

I thought this was a fantastic idea. 

And I must’ve absorbed that into my brain waves. Which is where the hallway leading to the Arena image came from and was so strong. 

Another strong realization was uncovered as well, that I am stuck in the “birthing canal.” Ew!!!

I am getting stuck from being born into this next version of myself. So this tunnel image makes total sense. 

Hmm...

The Gladiator part though?!

Why the fighting!!?!

Well...

Comedians most times only get One mic when you jump on stage in front of a zillion strangers. Improv is great Bc you have a partner at least but then no mic. 

It’s bare. Just what you have within is all you have between you and the crowds. 

It is incredibly vulnerable. 

Could even be equal to being a Gladiator going out to battle the unknown. 

Imagine it...

I am in this Arena entrance tunnel birthing to become God knows what! The chants and roars of the crowds of the Arena funnels through to my little body. 

I am terrified. 

Which is why the Gladiator image makes total sense. 

Bc...

UNLIKE MOST NEWBIES...I KNOW THE UNKNOWN BEASTS. 

G.D. I have slayed them many times, many lives, many scars before! I have been performing Comedy for the past 15years!!! 

I KNOW BETTER. 

And I am still CHOOSING to birth out into that glowing raucous crowd?!?!!

Wtf is wrong with ME?!?

Seriously. 

Makes sense why I’m inactive. It’s Bc I KNOW what battles I’m about to engage. Before...I had zero clue and so the courage of a novice kept me going. 

But...

Taking a break from it wasn’t the smartest thing. Not that I exactly had a choice. So here I am knowing the BIG ass nasty beasts that I inevitably will slay.

Today, What Past Monster do you hope to never have to slay again?!??

DIVORCE? Family member dying?! Boundaries?!?

We ALL are in the lick of it. At different stages. Here I am in fetal standing position saying really do I Have to go back in?!?!

Hahahah.

Such is the life of a Gladiator! ;) 

Xoxo