Art=YOU

My fear has got me SHAKE!SHAKE!..

Literally, inside shaking. 

Yesterday, I visited a healer that I have known for over 7 years. 

Kokichi Yamamoto told me...

That on the inside I am shaking with crippling fear. 

And I said yes, YES, I am. 

That's what that feeling has been!

He said that it's like there is a black whole in front of you & you are afraid to step forward.

And that is Exactly how I feel. Like I am stuck in this spot. 

On the edge of a cliff. 

But...

I didn't realize this about myself until Kokichi pointed it out. 

Then he said that I am being given divine inspiration. But it's getting stuck inside of me Bc of my inaction. 

It's like the Gods are giving me everything I want and asked for but bc of my fear it gets stuck inside of me. 

Ugh! 

There was an old idea that I read somewhere. Forgive me if it's not exactly correct...

Frida Kahlo said that the Artists in the pasts were thought to be vessels and that they were respected as such. The inspiration would come into them from the Gods & they would feed it out into the world with their Art. 

In the past, Artists weren't themselves. They were viewed as a hammer, or a pick. Just doing the work of the Gods. 

Now, Artists are so Over responsible for what they produce. Scrutiny is rampant. 

Art=YOU.

There is no longer a healthy detachment between Artist and Art, outcome, product. 

Fear is the result of this formula. 

Bc...

Judgement is so harsh. 

Of ourselves. 

From others. 

Besides this harsh reality of the responsibility of receiving the God's inspiration! 

No longer can an Artist exist. 

Freely producing the works.

Simply secreting and processing the inspirational food. 

A result oriented stage has been set to be the best. 

Always. 

Or suffer the consequences of being judged as a person. 

Where is the FUN in that?!?

Where is the danger? Failure is the goal. Failure should be okay. But there is no margin for error. And That is what makes the Artist of 2014 powerless. When the fear of failure is so disabling Bc it is directly connected with acceptance. 

Why can't there be a sense of humor?! "Like man, she did great last time but this one is a real stinker!" 

That's where I am stuck on the edge. 

I wish to shift my thinking from the black gaping whole in front of me. 

Towards the gratitude I feel for the daily inspirations and visions from above :)))

That's the problem and opportunity for me...

Shift my thinking from daunting to hopeful. 

Its not me anyways! These freakn Gods, or Whatever the F are speaking through me. So when I speak in tongues...Catch Up! 

AND F*CK the judges. 

Bc I'm going on a ride Mo Fo'

You with Me?!?

Today, are you a vessel? Does inspiration freely flow through you from idea to inner processing then sharing with the world? Is there any part of your process that you feel stuck? As an Artist in different phases we will find ourselves with black gaping holes preventing us from moving forward. It's not the hole that can stop us, it's how we choose to think about how to navigate over it that matters. 

Harnessed, we will no longer feel trapped in the human confines of fear. 

Fear is an interesting pursuit to safety. Let's talk more about this next week. I'll noodle it over the weekend, my Kings & Queens you do the same! 

Art=YOU

Xoxo