June 7, 2016

June 7, 2016 I threw my ex husband a premier party. 

He was on a tv show for half of a season. It was a huge deal!!! We were super excited. He was starting to book more and more Acting roles. It was exciting to watch. Packed the event center in our high-rise with his friends, acting buddies, and fellows to celebrate him. Ordered food, spent days preparing. Decorated :) 

After, the episode ended he gave a speech. He said how he has been working for years to get to this point. To achieve the status of working Actor. And he had his wife (ME!!!) to thank for it. He said I was his support system and without my love he wouldn't have been able to get here. It was touching. And truly great to see him happy. He had achieved what he set out to achieve. 

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I'm starting to feel the Vibrations of last year. 

Check out the GSTQ post on "Vibrations." My BFF believes that we feel Vibrations from the year before. So, if something traumatic, overjoyed or even jarring happened a year before you will feel it. 

I'm feeling the Vibrations. 

It's calm now. 

But...

The storm is coming. 

Last year at this time I was Oblivious. 

Oblivious.

Oblivious. 

Today, Where were you at this time last year? Good place trucking along? Or going through it?!? 

Chances are you will remember your sense of feelings more than the specifics. 

Take a moment to remember. 

It's a week to the day after June 7 and I am honoring the waves. 

Last year, I made a choice not to share with my fellow Queens & Kings what was really happening to me. 

I felt like I didn't understand it yet. I hadn't processed it. So how could I share? Not sure that was the best thing to do Bc perhaps sharing with you might have helped clarify. But...

I didn't share. 

I didn't write much at all. 

I clammed it all.

Inside. 

Blamed myself. 

Mostly. 

Well...

It's time to open up. 

I'll be spending the next season revisiting what was happening this time last year. 

I made this decision while I was traveling in March. I realized that it's important to honor where I have been. Also, it might help someone else going through it too! 

Hold onto your crowns! 

We are embarking on a journey together :)))! 

Xoxo